Mothering Fail

GT asked me if I was going to post this and I guess I have to since it is not my first mothering fail but the first to draw blood. I had T on the dining room table and was showing off how good he can sit up on his own. What a big boy! When he fell forward face first into his bouncy seat and started crying hysterically. I picked him up and looked at him and he looked fine and stopped crying pretty quickly. A few minutes later he was sitting in GT's lap and being pretty happy and that is when I noticed the small trickle of blood coming out of his nose. We wiped up the blood and pressed on his nose and it didn't seem to bother him so I don't think it was really hurt. I felt enormously guilty all night. In fact I convinced myself that he had a concussion even though he hit his nose not his head.

The reason I convinced myself, in all my first mother paranoia, is because T slept. We have been doing Ferber for 5 days and the 4th night was the worst of all. T cried for almost 2 hours and so did I. Last night, however, he went to sleep without a peep and slept through his 10:00 feed all the way to 12:00.I woke up at 11:45 convinced that my baby was A) dead B) passed out from his concussion or the least plausible C) Ferber was beginning to work. Last night was not without some crying but he seemed to be making some progress. We have eliminated the pacifier from T's life almost entirely. It is now for emergency back up situations only and never to go in the crib with him. I know I posted that we were doing this a while back but parenthood is filled with good intentions. Last time when I tried to take the pacifier away at naptime T cried for over an hour and I eventually gave in. This time it was much easier. I think he was more ready to fall asleep on his own.

Also T has found his feet. I took some especially embarrassing pics of him without a diaper on because that is when he is most limber. I'll try to post the PG version here. He also has started to babble a lot more and is putting vowels and consonants together such as baba and dada. I am so proud.